sitting, waiting, wishing

I love Jack Johnson. Too bad I can't go to Live Earth on 7th July.
So I'm not really depressed anymore, the feelings are fading. Thank god. But here I am, again. Who would have thought I'd be communicating with myself? So yea, my last bit of depression would be the 'sitting, wishing, hoping' part, despite the fact that yesterday was a good day. Submitted the arse-hard DOHA essay, and I passed my quiz for Economics of Money and Finance (thank god), watched Georgia Rule..a good one cos it made me cry in the end.

My sister in law told me, relationships are complicated. It's not just about loving each other. It's about being compatible. Somehow I never actually felt that way before with pea, maybe I tried to think we're compatible, but as time goes by I feel that we're getting further than compatible. Everything seems impossible now, I have tried really hard. We have tried to make it work since in the beginning of our relationship. Yet, I can't see myself in the future with pea. I hate to feel this way but my gut feeling keeps telling me that. I'll just be more positive and hold on tighter, and see how long more this can carry on.

love, dreamer.