Cameron Diaz

Hi blog,

so it seems like i'll be stuck with you til my depression goes away.bear with me for a couple of days till my pms is gone,alright?i'm so so so sick of this.ohh guess what time i slept?8AM,yup yup.

i've been fucking depressed for a week.maybe it's the workload.nah.more like i think that my future has been planned out,and it's certain,and i really hate it.not career,na-uh.career wise i'd be really happy if everything has been planned out til the next 10 years.more like i don't think that i am experiencing my young life enough and i'm already stuck,er,committed with someone else.and i think i'm being pressured by the whole "we're getting married" thing by everyone around me.sick of it.gosh why the fuck is this happening.i feel like i'm not doing what i'm supposed to be doing.i haven't done the things i wanna do,i haven't experienced the things i wanna experience,and oh guess what?i'm stuck with someone and so i can't do the things i want.so this brings me to Cameron Diaz,a hot SALTY (single woman after a long term relationship).Morrissey,one of Australia's top designers said "Salties get the chance to spend their youth making the most of new experiences".while everyone around me is sick of being single,me on the other hand hate being committed too fast.it's making me depressed.

I have always admired Cameron Diaz.She is strong,hot,not young but still makes the most of her life.i'm only 20 and my whole future has been planned out.and people have expectations from me,namely pea's fam.

so,blog,that's why i've created you.cos i can only express my insane depression to something or someone who doesn't know my circle of friends or boyfriend.please don't talk to me back,i'd freak out.i think this is insane.

love, dreamer.