The Spark

Hi,

So I have discovered the good reasons behind the break up. The break up has finally allowed me to become an individual again, who I was and who I am and how I am supposed to be. I feel whole again, and I have never been any happier in life. I refuse to feel anything less than blessed, cos I am truly grateful with what I have now and what I have become. My mom told me that, when you are at your lowest point in life, there is only one way to get back up and that is by going back to your religion-where you're from. And so I did, and I am feeling all the happiness in the world that it is impossible for me to think that life sucks right now. This is truly the greatest gift I could ever get from a break up. Haha!

I think another important thing I have learned out of this whole thing is to be patient and have a lot of faith in God. I had a few friends who came to me and complained how their life suck and unfair. I used to feel that way about my life at times (who doesn't?), self pity I'd say. But I think that life is much bigger than that, and how could I feel so happy about life right now when my ex is trying to rub shit on my face, being dramatic about his new life and all? Because I have all the wonderful people around me, and that 1 unworthy person could never affect my life. That's how. We are the master of our own minds, therefore we control our own emotions. We only feel that life is unfair because we let ourselves feel that way, right? Am I making sense? I am feeling fever-ish out of a sudden. Okay, random! To conclude, I have found every good reasons about the break up. And I am very lucky, blessed and grateful. Life is colourful, and wonderful. So why fret on petty little things?

Love, dreamer.

The end followed by a new beginning.

Hi,

So I don't think it is necessary for me to go through everything from the beginning. Bottom line is that the person I thought I could really trust got a new partner 2 days after we ended our relationship. Hahaha. Yea, I always thought that there are certain things which should not happen to me, but they actually did happen. Like the car accident, when I least expected it. I'm only human who deserves to get angry but at the same time I have realized that things happen for the best reasons although I might not have discovered most of it yet. I had been in my comfort zone where I was also very protected and obligated in certain things. Like what my rainbow heart sister said, I was in a golden cage where everything was provided, but I couldn't do more than what was allowed.

I consider myself very lucky, to have a strong support system and to be out of a 3 year relationship by getting cheated on. It's so much easier to get over it but also the most painful as I had trusted and gave my heart to this person. After almost 3 weeks being single, I realized what I have been missing out in experiencing life before marriage. It also made me a stronger and bigger person, because I gave him a second chance when I had totally lost my feelings for him when he betrayed me one year ago. I was and still am capable of lowering down my ego to allow miracles to seem possible. I don't believe that people who couldn't respect me deserve the best of me. Therefore, I am very glad it is over. I have always believed that when you really want something so badly but it doesn't go your way, something much better than what you expect will come along. :)

Love, dreamer.