Just wondering. If we believe that God plans everything for us, then we are blessed by God in achieving our dreams, wishes and prayers. Are we lucky, or blessed, for having a roof as a shelter? Are we lucky, or blessed, for scoring that promotion? Are we lucky, or blessed, to win a trip to Europe? God plans it all, and things don't just happen by luck. So we're blessed. Right? Why do we say that we're lucky then?
I just had a good dinner with friends, although I wasn't even hungry while there are millions of children around the world who are suffering from hunger. If you're reading this, clearly you are blessed, because you have enough money to own a computer/laptop, and enough money to access the internet. Surely you have enough money for food too. I don't believe that you're on a risk of getting blown up by bombs too.
You didn't get a Distinction for your assignment because you didn't put enough effort. You got your heart broken because you've failed to realize how much you're worth. You didn't get that job because it isn't suitable for you. Your friends fucked you up because you put too much faith in them. Think again. And stop feeling sorry for yourself.
love, dreamer.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Happiness
Inspiring Quotes:
Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful. - Albert Schweitzer
Unhappiness is best defined as the difference between our talents and our expectations. - Edward De Bono
Sometimes I tend to forget that we learn to be stronger when we fall. Thanks to my experiences, I believe that everything happens for a good reason, to bring us to where we are, to shape us into who we want to be. At times it takes a tragedy to make us realize that we are blessed with what we have, and learn to appreciate what we already have instead of searching for the things we can't have. I was told that happiness comes when we expect nothing in return.
What gets us 'lost' in living is being ungrateful. Sometimes it's okay to feel 'lost', cos then you'll realize what you have been blessed with once you get back on the right path. That's when you figure out what is important to you and appreciate the little things even more. It's okay to be 'lost', because it's a learning experience to help you grow and figure things out.
love, dreamer.
Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful. - Albert Schweitzer
Unhappiness is best defined as the difference between our talents and our expectations. - Edward De Bono
Sometimes I tend to forget that we learn to be stronger when we fall. Thanks to my experiences, I believe that everything happens for a good reason, to bring us to where we are, to shape us into who we want to be. At times it takes a tragedy to make us realize that we are blessed with what we have, and learn to appreciate what we already have instead of searching for the things we can't have. I was told that happiness comes when we expect nothing in return.
What gets us 'lost' in living is being ungrateful. Sometimes it's okay to feel 'lost', cos then you'll realize what you have been blessed with once you get back on the right path. That's when you figure out what is important to you and appreciate the little things even more. It's okay to be 'lost', because it's a learning experience to help you grow and figure things out.
love, dreamer.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Al-fatihah
Hi,
After years of battling with his health, my grandfather has gone back to rahmatullah at 10.35am KL time on the 21st of April 2008.
Sometime 10 years ago, my parents told me that my grandfather has been diagnosed with the Alzheimer's disease, a side-effect we're all aware that he'd get after his operation. Along the years, his memory loss became more and more apparent. And at one point which I never noticed, he forgot the names of his grandchildren, and it went on. He only remembered the people who were always by his side, especially my grandmother and his children. I'm sad because I don't have a lot of memories about him. A picture which is always on my mind was a time when he stood by the door of his house with his golf bag in his red striped polo tshirt, waited for my uncles to go golfing. I remember we went to London together, and I stayed at the hotel with him most of the time playing with my doll while everyone went for their shopping spree (the time when I was into dolls, not shopping). We went to the States together too but I can't remember that. We went to Pulau Tuba where we stayed in a chalet by the waterfall which my uncle built, and Penang!
When he started getting really sick, he barely gets up on his feet. Then came the time when he had to start using a wheelchair. It became harder for him to walk to the kitchen table to have lunch or dinner with us. It was almost impossible for me to see him lying on his bed, looking absolutely frail and fragile. It was hard because he had been an active and strong man. Seeing him weak just made me sad throughout the years he was sick. He started forgetting my name, then forgot that I'm his granddaughter. That happened to everyone. He had been sick for many years and was in pain at the end. I am sad, because I've lost someone, who was the head of the Taib family. I'm also glad that he is now content and in a better place. I have been keeping his book which he passed to his daughter-in-law, my mom. It's the 1937 edition of "The Hobbit" by J.R.R Tolkien. How cool? I've never read it but it's sitting in my bookshelf in my room. It's very old.
I never had the chance to tell him that I love him. Tok Ayah, I love you.
love, the loving granddaughter.
After years of battling with his health, my grandfather has gone back to rahmatullah at 10.35am KL time on the 21st of April 2008.
Sometime 10 years ago, my parents told me that my grandfather has been diagnosed with the Alzheimer's disease, a side-effect we're all aware that he'd get after his operation. Along the years, his memory loss became more and more apparent. And at one point which I never noticed, he forgot the names of his grandchildren, and it went on. He only remembered the people who were always by his side, especially my grandmother and his children. I'm sad because I don't have a lot of memories about him. A picture which is always on my mind was a time when he stood by the door of his house with his golf bag in his red striped polo tshirt, waited for my uncles to go golfing. I remember we went to London together, and I stayed at the hotel with him most of the time playing with my doll while everyone went for their shopping spree (the time when I was into dolls, not shopping). We went to the States together too but I can't remember that. We went to Pulau Tuba where we stayed in a chalet by the waterfall which my uncle built, and Penang!
When he started getting really sick, he barely gets up on his feet. Then came the time when he had to start using a wheelchair. It became harder for him to walk to the kitchen table to have lunch or dinner with us. It was almost impossible for me to see him lying on his bed, looking absolutely frail and fragile. It was hard because he had been an active and strong man. Seeing him weak just made me sad throughout the years he was sick. He started forgetting my name, then forgot that I'm his granddaughter. That happened to everyone. He had been sick for many years and was in pain at the end. I am sad, because I've lost someone, who was the head of the Taib family. I'm also glad that he is now content and in a better place. I have been keeping his book which he passed to his daughter-in-law, my mom. It's the 1937 edition of "The Hobbit" by J.R.R Tolkien. How cool? I've never read it but it's sitting in my bookshelf in my room. It's very old.
I never had the chance to tell him that I love him. Tok Ayah, I love you.
love, the loving granddaughter.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Uncertainty kills
Hi,
I do this to myself all the time. Second guessing my actions and decisions. Unsure about what I should do. When I get the feeling that I should do something, I always manage to find reasons which would stop me from doing it. I don't know if that's just me being in denial to face reality, or me being fantastic for holding on to faith. Sometimes I believe in impossible things, I can't help it. Again, I don't know if that's being a believer, or a dreamer. Every decisions I make, every thoughts I allow to cross my mind, I'm always torn in between two different reasonings. You see, I'm trying to do the right thing as I've learned from my mistakes. I think I know what I should do for my own sake, but then what if that's the wrong thing to do? I don't think I have enough faith in myself to act on my own decisions. All I know is that I should hold on to what makes me happy. And that's exactly what I'm doing. Gosh so stop thinking already dammit! Bye.
love, dreamer.
I do this to myself all the time. Second guessing my actions and decisions. Unsure about what I should do. When I get the feeling that I should do something, I always manage to find reasons which would stop me from doing it. I don't know if that's just me being in denial to face reality, or me being fantastic for holding on to faith. Sometimes I believe in impossible things, I can't help it. Again, I don't know if that's being a believer, or a dreamer. Every decisions I make, every thoughts I allow to cross my mind, I'm always torn in between two different reasonings. You see, I'm trying to do the right thing as I've learned from my mistakes. I think I know what I should do for my own sake, but then what if that's the wrong thing to do? I don't think I have enough faith in myself to act on my own decisions. All I know is that I should hold on to what makes me happy. And that's exactly what I'm doing. Gosh so stop thinking already dammit! Bye.
love, dreamer.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Numb
Have you ever been in a place where you are in the middle of nowhere? You want to go somewhere safe but if you start walking on the road to your left, you'd be walking on pieces of broken glasses. If you start walking on the road to your right, you'd get your chest slit opened and your heart stabbed by an asylum escapee. The latter is quick, but it's painful. Or do you just stand where you are right now, wait for some kind of a miracle to happen by holding on to faith. Oh, did I mention that faith backfired on you the last time? Expecting and hoping are out of the list and you can't count on them.
I am being the best I can be because I believe that anything good and worth it is hard. People don't just give up when they want to have something right? And yes, I was the kind of person who gives up all the time when times are hard. In anything. So is this some kind of a patience test? I should get a medal then shouldn't I? All I want to know is whether my effort will be paid off with generous credits, or am I just kidding myself? I am in the middle of nowhere, where hopes and dreams aren't allowed. Left, right, middle....all the same.
love, dreamer.
I am being the best I can be because I believe that anything good and worth it is hard. People don't just give up when they want to have something right? And yes, I was the kind of person who gives up all the time when times are hard. In anything. So is this some kind of a patience test? I should get a medal then shouldn't I? All I want to know is whether my effort will be paid off with generous credits, or am I just kidding myself? I am in the middle of nowhere, where hopes and dreams aren't allowed. Left, right, middle....all the same.
love, dreamer.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Happy Lovers' Day
I so love Like a Star by Corinne Bailey Rae. Oh, happy valentine's day to everyone who loves me :)
I feel so...single. I will throw my slippers to any couple who displays their affection publicly today, no kidding.
I visited my bestfriend at her place as it was her birthday and she happened to have a massive headache. And I couldn't stop giggling watching her boyfriend pampering her and caring for her because I never thought he's that type. No wonder she still gets weak in her knees after 1+ years. I'm happy that she gets part of the happiness she truly deserves.
This actually made me think about being moderate. You know how humans are never satisfied with what they have. Too little of something and too much of something is never good. It's best to be somewhere in the middle to attain good balance. When you get too little of something, you crave for more. When you get too much of something, you wish it would go away. I on the other hand personally feel that too much of something is better than too little of something, cos that's where your satisfaction is overmaximised.
love, dreamer.
I feel so...single. I will throw my slippers to any couple who displays their affection publicly today, no kidding.
I visited my bestfriend at her place as it was her birthday and she happened to have a massive headache. And I couldn't stop giggling watching her boyfriend pampering her and caring for her because I never thought he's that type. No wonder she still gets weak in her knees after 1+ years. I'm happy that she gets part of the happiness she truly deserves.
This actually made me think about being moderate. You know how humans are never satisfied with what they have. Too little of something and too much of something is never good. It's best to be somewhere in the middle to attain good balance. When you get too little of something, you crave for more. When you get too much of something, you wish it would go away. I on the other hand personally feel that too much of something is better than too little of something, cos that's where your satisfaction is overmaximised.
love, dreamer.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Untitled
I have about 35 days left in KL. Then I'm off to Sydney, then Melbourne. It's as scary as hell but I am looking forward to it. Hell I don't even know if I'm good enough to get a job there. I hope I get a job real soon. I feel like a hopeless unemployed graduate.
If you want something, you gotta work for it like you want it. Not sit around, waiting for things to just happen.
I need a getaway.
If you want something, you gotta work for it like you want it. Not sit around, waiting for things to just happen.
I need a getaway.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Ex-shopaholic, please!
Past my bedtime but I found myself thinking about things and couldn't stop myself. Another A-ha! moment for me. I think everyone labels me as a shopaholic. Yes, I admit that I was once a shopaholic who couldn't survive without going shopping at least 4 days a week? You know how sometimes people tend to either overeat, or overshop (if there's such a term) when they're emotionally unstable? Yes, I was emotionally unstable everyday of my life up until when, well, my previous relationship ended. I wasn't happy and I had to look for happiness elsewhere. Shopping. Then, when I finally got out from the golden cage I was trapped in, I found my own happiness, true happiness which I can hold on to *clap clap*.
Why I randomly blog about this is because I was wondering why I haven't shop or even bother to shop at all for weeks now. And I'm only deprived of socialising. Nothing else. So there I go, found my answer to my own question. And decided to blog instead of talk to myself in my sleep. Thanks.
love, dreamer.
Why I randomly blog about this is because I was wondering why I haven't shop or even bother to shop at all for weeks now. And I'm only deprived of socialising. Nothing else. So there I go, found my answer to my own question. And decided to blog instead of talk to myself in my sleep. Thanks.
love, dreamer.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Nothing Lasts Forever
I have always believed that nothing good lasts forever. I don't know if that's being pessimistic, or realistic. But it has always proved to be true. The only thing which lasts forever are diamonds. But then again, who am I to be sure of that? We say that nothing good lasts forever when something good in our life goes away. But we say the opposite when good things are happening to us. I can't wait to be proven wrong about what I believe :)
Note: The title to this entry was inspired by a friend's quote I came across.
Note: The title to this entry was inspired by a friend's quote I came across.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Rudd wins
Apart from suffering muscle aches and hunger and packing my stuff, one thing managed to make my day a little better. At last, Australia is a member of Kyoto Protocol. Hopefully the US will join too one day, as it is the biggest contributor of green gas emissions. Go Rudd! He truly is winning Australians' support by signing the agreement to tackle climate change. Yeay. Finally the voices of concerned Australians are heard. Oh well, Australia is one of the biggest contributors of green gas emissions too, so I'm happy they're taking responsibilities on their actions. Other than that, I know nothing about politics and am not interested.
I hope Malaysians will be just as concerned as Australians about climate change one day. KL city is suffering from chronic air pollution every year and I am absolutely shocked by how everyone is complaining about it, but make no effort to solve the problem. Hello? I think that is the problem with Malaysians. We complain and we expect the government to do something about it rather than taking part in solving the problem. Does it have anything to do with our country not controlled by a Democratic government? My knowledge in that area is very limited, thanks. People complain about their problems, over-think about their problems, but they don't try to work on solutions. Life is too short for that.
10 days to pure happiness :)
I hope Malaysians will be just as concerned as Australians about climate change one day. KL city is suffering from chronic air pollution every year and I am absolutely shocked by how everyone is complaining about it, but make no effort to solve the problem. Hello? I think that is the problem with Malaysians. We complain and we expect the government to do something about it rather than taking part in solving the problem. Does it have anything to do with our country not controlled by a Democratic government? My knowledge in that area is very limited, thanks. People complain about their problems, over-think about their problems, but they don't try to work on solutions. Life is too short for that.
10 days to pure happiness :)
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